{"id":1236,"date":"2022-08-02T01:18:31","date_gmt":"2022-08-02T01:18:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/?page_id=1236"},"modified":"2023-03-15T21:56:06","modified_gmt":"2023-03-15T21:56:06","slug":"sanguaza","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/trabajo-artistico\/sanguaza\/","title":{"rendered":"SANGUAZA"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-1 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"687\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"1075\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_14-1-687x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1075\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_14-1-687x1024.jpg 687w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_14-1-201x300.jpg 201w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_14-1-768x1144.jpg 768w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_14-1-1031x1536.jpg 1031w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_14-1-rotated.jpg 1272w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 687px) 100vw, 687px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"687\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"1078\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_13A-687x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1078\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_13A-687x1024.jpg 687w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_13A-201x300.jpg 201w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_13A-768x1144.jpg 768w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_13A-1031x1536.jpg 1031w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo17_13A-rotated.jpg 1272w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 687px) 100vw, 687px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"687\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"1084\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo28_24A-1-687x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1084\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo28_24A-1-687x1024.jpg 687w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo28_24A-1-201x300.jpg 201w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo28_24A-1-768x1144.jpg 768w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo28_24A-1-1031x1536.jpg 1031w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/Photo28_24A-1.jpg 1272w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 687px) 100vw, 687px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-red-color has-text-color\" id=\"viewer-dsnav\"><strong>Photographic Exhibition:<\/strong> <a href=\"https:\/\/vimeo.com\/macarenoibarrajimenez\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">Maca Ibarra Jimenez<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-red-color has-text-color\">Presentation: Tuesday, June 14 2022<br>Performance and Installation<br>Length : 45 minutes<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-red-color has-text-color\" id=\"viewer-dsnav\"><strong>Artist:<\/strong> Florianne Philippe-Beauchamp fka Burbiculo<br><strong>Curated by:<\/strong> Rai Jacob and Manu Huesca Toledo<br><strong>Production:<\/strong> <a href=\"https:\/\/www.jacobotoledo.com\/sanguaza\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">JACOBXTOLEDX<\/a><br><strong>Production Team:<\/strong> Giovanni Zsegura, Ceci Palacios<br><strong>Text Edition: <\/strong>Florianne Philippe-Beauchamp, Dolores de Bernardo, Xavier Philippe-Beauchamp<br><strong>Audio Production:<\/strong> Burbiculo, Zemmoa<br><strong>Special Effects Makeup:<\/strong> Karen Insekto<br><strong>Lighting:<\/strong> Tatsumi Matsumoto<br><strong>Video Recording:<\/strong> Tatsumi Matsumoto, Jacobx Toledx<br><strong>Photo: <\/strong>Errante Estrella, Patricio Malag\u00f3n<br><strong>DJ: <\/strong>Bruja Prieta<br><strong>Location: <\/strong>JXTX + SALON SILICON<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-vimeo wp-block-embed-vimeo wp-embed-aspect-9-16 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"SANGUAZA - teaser\" src=\"https:\/\/player.vimeo.com\/video\/733817519?h=66600113d1&amp;dnt=1&amp;app_id=122963\" width=\"563\" height=\"1000\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"autoplay; fullscreen; picture-in-picture\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-left has-red-color has-text-color\" id=\"viewer-dsnav\"><strong>Video and Edition :<\/strong> <a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/ttsm____\/\">Tatsumi Matsumoto<\/a><br><strong>Audio Edition : <\/strong><a href=\"https:\/\/linktr.ee\/MonkeyJF\">Pablo Flores<\/a><br><br>Due to its ephemeral nature, as the artist used the fluids from the drains that came out of its body after its top surgery, it is a performance that could only happen once. To view the full video, please send me an email at floriannepb@gmail.com<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">SANGUAZA is a collective spiritual ritual. When I was able to wash myself for the first time after my top surgery, I felt that I was reborn and that it was my baptism. I felt like I gave birth to myself with this surgery. My friend H\u00e9ctor was accompanying me, bathing me in those sacred waters that got dirty very quickly, while tubes came out of my body filling the containers of the drains with blood. There was no boundary between my body and the fluids. It&#8217;s the beauty of liquids, it is a connective space. We know amniotic liquid before we know air, and if we get out of the liquid too early, we don&#8217;t know life. The fluid is a liminal space where it is unclear where I end and the rest begins. Is the blood that comes out of my body part of my body? Where does it stop being me? What is mine and what is yours? I believe that everything is ours and everything passes through us, we are part of a much larger organism. SANGUAZA is a proposal to stop believing that we are separable, that my body ends here and yours begins here; that my emotions end here and yours begin here, that my story ends here and yours begins here. My body is a collective territory and the ritual of SANGUAZA was to pass through you and allow you to pass me through.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">In itself, my top surgery was possible thanks to a fundraiser, my body was modified thanks to each person who made a donation, to the people who took care of me after the surgery, my body depended on all the people who loved me until I was able to love myself. This body is yours too. This experience is yours.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">Every person in my life has led me to this. Every moment has led me to this. The day of the performance, I cried a lot, seeing Hector&#8217;s photos displayed on large towels. I never thought I would experience happiness in my life. It was not even imaginable. I never thought that changing a part of my body would make me feel so peaceful. The texts that accompany the performance, fragments of my notebooks from 2015 to 2022, ask again and again, how much of my psychological suffering was dysphoria? And I feel more than ever that access to health services for trans people really saves lives.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-2 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1200\" height=\"1200\" data-id=\"1091\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0081-edited.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1091\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0081-edited.jpg 1200w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0081-edited-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0081-edited-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0081-edited-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0081-edited-768x768.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1200px) 100vw, 1200px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"683\" data-id=\"1189\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/6-1024x683.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1189\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/6-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/6-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/6-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/6-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/6-2048x1366.jpg 2048w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/6-1568x1046.jpg 1568w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote has-dark-gray-color has-red-background-color has-text-color has-background is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:200\">\n<p>Cinco d\u00edas despu\u00e9s de la mastectom\u00eda y la vida es bella. Los d\u00edas de recuperaci\u00f3n son suaves, rodeadx de las personas que amo y que me aman en la ciudad. Es un momento de celebraci\u00f3n, es la gran cosecha. Tengo relaciones enriquecedoras, florecientes, llenas de amor, intimidad y confianza; nos cuidamos por elecci\u00f3n. Me siento afortunadx de haber podido preguntar a tantxs cercanxs &#8220;\u00bfpuedes cuidarme despu\u00e9s de mi cirugia?&#8221; y de escuchar a tanta gente diciendo que s\u00ed. Estoy orgullosx de haber podido crear el tipo de relaciones y de vida que quer\u00eda y que quiero con estas personas. Cre\u00e9 mis familias y mi hogar. Estos d\u00edas tranquilos de recuperaci\u00f3n me hacen sentir que no necesito nada m\u00e1s; Tengo todo lo que necesito aqu\u00ed y ahora. Lo de mas es superfluo. Senti el agua sobre mi piel sin la molestia de un traje de bano. Mi cuerpo es el hogar mas hermoso, soy mi propio hogar, y me maravillo de sentirme completamente a gusto. Vuelvo a flotar boca arriba, en este liquido amniotico que es el mar, y vuelvo a nacer, cuantas veces he renacido, cuantas veces mas voy a renacer, cuantas veces he muerto para renacer, y vuelvo a nacer, cuantas veces he renacido, cuantas veces mas voy a renacer, cuantas veces he muerto para renacer.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-3 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"683\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"1104\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/9-copie-683x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1104\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/9-copie-683x1024.jpg 683w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/9-copie-200x300.jpg 200w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/9-copie-768x1152.jpg 768w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/9-copie-1024x1536.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/9-copie-1365x2048.jpg 1365w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/9-copie-1568x2352.jpg 1568w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/9-copie-scaled.jpg 1707w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 683px) 100vw, 683px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"683\" data-id=\"1107\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/13-copie-1024x683.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1107\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/13-copie-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/13-copie-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/13-copie-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/13-copie-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/13-copie-2048x1366.jpg 2048w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/13-copie-1568x1046.jpg 1568w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/14-copie-1-683x1024.jpg\" alt=\"This image has an empty alt attribute; its file name is 14-copie-1-683x1024.jpg\"\/><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-4 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"766\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"1110\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0052-766x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1110\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0052-766x1024.jpg 766w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0052-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0052-768x1026.jpg 768w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0052.jpg 958w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 766px) 100vw, 766px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"766\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"1111\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0054-766x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1111\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0054-766x1024.jpg 766w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0054-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0054-768x1026.jpg 768w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0054.jpg 958w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 766px) 100vw, 766px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"682\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/12-copie-1024x682.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1122\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/12-copie-1024x682.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/12-copie-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/12-copie-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/12-copie-1536x1023.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/12-copie-2048x1365.jpg 2048w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/12-copie-1568x1045.jpg 1568w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-5 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"768\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"1134\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0026-1-768x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1134\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0026-1-768x1024.jpg 768w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0026-1-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0026-1-1152x1536.jpg 1152w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG-20220615-WA0026-1.jpg 1200w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 768px) 100vw, 768px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" data-id=\"1137\" 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class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" data-id=\"1169\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG_1518-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1169\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" data-id=\"1172\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG_1541-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1172\"\/><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"2560\" height=\"1707\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG_1543-2-scaled.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1181\" srcset=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG_1543-2-scaled.jpg 2560w, https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG_1543-2-300x200.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 2560px) 100vw, 2560px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/burbiculo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/IMG_1562-2.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1184\"\/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Photos by Errante Estrella and Patricio Malag\u00f3n<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">Two days after my top surgery I was able to wash myself for the first time. We filled the bathtub on the balcony and H\u00e9ctor helped me take a bath and wash my hair, and took pictures of me. It was the first time I could touch my new chest. I felt that I had been reborn and that it was my baptism. I felt like I gave birth to myself with this surgery. And H\u00e9ctor was accompanying me, bathing me in sacred water that got dirty very quickly, while tubes came out of my body filling the containers of the drains with blood. There was no boundary between my body and the fluids. It&#8217;s the beauty of fluids, it is a connective space. We know amniotic liquid before we know air, and if we get out of the liquid too early, we don&#8217;t know life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">I emptied the bloody fluids from the drains every 12 hours for 11 days and kept it all in a jar in my freezer. I didn&#8217;t know why I was keeping them yet. One night, I saw Tatsumi and H\u00e9ctor and they asked me, \u201cWhat are you going to do with the blood? We were talking about it.&#8221; At the same time, I did not obtain, as always, the grant for which I had applied, and I rejected collaborations with cultural institutions that did not offer me decent working conditions. One day I was with Rai and I told them about it, that I was no longer going to wait for the approval of cultural institutions to create, when together with my friends, we have all the talent, knowledge and creativity to collaborate. Rai told me that their Jacobo Toledo studio was available whenever I  wanted to do whatever I wanted.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">When I saw the photos H\u00e9ctor took of me for the first time, I cried. I saw with my own eyes my total embodied relief. I never thought that changing a part of my body would make me feel so peaceful. I went back to the sea, to the town in Nayarit where I felt good for the first time in my life in 2016, and where I later lived for a year. I closed cycles in the sea, with my mother, with Julio, with my new body. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">And so began the process of creating the performance that we always called SANGUAZA. Tatsumi helped me in the first brainstorm; I made a real proposal to Rai and Manu. We got together and began to think about what this performance and installation was going to be like, with the photos that H\u00e9ctor took of me before and after the surgery. The idea of \u200b\u200btaking off a second skin was unclear until I met Insekto, who understood my vision and suggested something better than I had imagined, creating a second skin made of liquid latex, that I was going to be able to rip off. I loved taking it off, I felt a lot of joy. I don&#8217;t fit in this skin anymore.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">I started to work on the texts, reading all my notebooks from 2016 to today, looking for all the fragments where I talk about my gender, water, and my body as home. Revisiting my own writings was painful. The first years of my transition, which I had not yet named that way, were a refusal to be a woman, highly influenced by experiencing sexism and sexual violence. But since I didn&#8217;t want to be a man either, I didn&#8217;t know what choice I had. Dolores helped me think about the texts and reflect on the use of languages, and I decided to record the texts just as I wrote them, in the language in which I wrote them. Spanish allowed me to name myself and use a neutral pronoun, which is still impossible in French, my native language. I feel that I was able to transition thanks to a place, Mexico City, because I was able to exist in the language. My brother Xavier, my best friend, an ally since I was born, an ally in the most painful years of my depressive disorder, and always an ally with my sexual orientation and gender confusion, helped me revise and edit the texts. It was important to me that he be part of this performance in some way. He told me that it was interesting to read in my words these things that I told him and that we have talked about for years. Zemmoa helped me record the texts in her studio. Jovan agreed to DJ as part of the celebration and party that this performance was. It was so special to be able to share bits of this creative process with people who were essential in my gender processes in recent years, and whom I love very much.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">I thank all of these people who were part of the creation of SANGUAZA and also:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">The people who took care of me after my top surgery and were there the night of the performance: Bia, Huguette, H\u00e9ctor, Feyla, Diego, Lucia, Saul, Cesi, Paulina. I can be who I am because of your love. This full moon in Sagittarius was a big harvest and what we continue to plant by choice will continue to flourish.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">Thank you to the people who made me who I am, to all the people who have have passed through me and who I have passed through in my entire life. Thanks to the people who loved me until I loved myself and who made me feel that I can love myself. (I borrowed this concept from Caffyn Jesse and my Somatic Sex Education community, originally from the Twelve Step processes.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">Thanks to my family, for their unconditional support and the space they gave me from the beginning until today.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">Thanks to the 160 people who came. We really didn&#8217;t expect so much interest and it means a lot to me. Special thanks to the Permanente crew, with whom I have been dancing every week for two and a half years, which is basically my most stable relationship.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">Thanks to the people who were there with me emotionally in the days before and after the performance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">Thanks to the JXTX production team, with a special hug to Gio, for his physical and emotional support on the day of the performance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">Thanks to Tatsumi for pushing me creatively, for being a genius, for understanding me, for solving the lighting issues, for the emotional support after the performance, and for this beautiful friendship that we are building.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-red-color has-text-color\">I deeply thank Rai and Manu for this collaboration. Thank you for believing in my art, in my voice and in my vision; I am very demanding and committed to my work and you proved me that there are people I can trust and with whom I can collaborate. Thank you for making me believe more in love and magic. Here&#8217;s to many more years.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Photographic Exhibition: Maca Ibarra Jimenez Presentation: Tuesday, June 14 2022Performance and InstallationLength : 45 minutes Artist: Florianne Philippe-Beauchamp fka BurbiculoCurated by: Rai Jacob and Manu Huesca ToledoProduction: JACOBXTOLEDXProduction Team: Giovanni Zsegura, Ceci PalaciosText Edition: Florianne Philippe-Beauchamp, Dolores de Bernardo, Xavier Philippe-BeauchampAudio Production: Burbiculo, ZemmoaSpecial Effects Makeup: Karen InsektoLighting: Tatsumi MatsumotoVideo Recording: Tatsumi Matsumoto, Jacobx ToledxPhoto:&hellip; <a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/trabajo-artistico\/sanguaza\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">SANGUAZA<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":669,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-1236","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/1236","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1236"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/1236\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1417,"href":"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/1236\/revisions\/1417"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/669"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/burbiculo.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1236"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}