Performance, 2018-2019
First presentation in Tortilla by Traicion, Mexico City, 2018
Second presentation for the Anniversary of the flour ex-factory, Mexico City, 2019
Third edited presentation in Festival Prohibido, Guadalajara, 2019
This performance addresses gender issues that preoccupied me a lot when I created this piece. I arrived with clothes and movements associated with masculinity, interacting with the public. My voice-over the music spoke of having ”passing” as a man, of never having wanted to be a woman, but of feeling conflicted about my masculinity because of my hatred of patriarchy. As I began to talk about the dysphoria specific to being queer or non-binary, I took off my masculine clothes and was in lingerie with high heels. I began a performance of seduction and sensuality while my voice-over spoke of the ways in which I identify with my femininity, which are socially incorrect (too strong, sexual, intelligent, dramatic and feminist). I invited a woman from the public to sit in my chair and I did a lap dance for her. Then, I used my voice to speak live about my body which is a war territory, taking off all my clothes to be in underwear. I recounted sexual violence that I have experienced, with each story marking my body with a pen. I told how I have felt guilty several times, but declared that it was not my fault, that it was never my fault, and that it was not your fault, it is never our fault. I took the red candles that I had lit before the performance and poured the wax on my body, saying that it burned the guilt and that my body was my revolution.
It was a cathartic performance for me, giving permission to the public to live their catharsis through me. All this performance questions the gender norms in which we grow up without realizing it; How can women be sexual subjects and enjoy their sexuality? How can we be trans men, trans-masculine people or non-binaries while we have experienced such sexist violence by being socialized as girls? How do sexual violence transform our corporeality? How can we be desired by being androgynous? Where do gender as a political regime and gender identity intersect?